Divine Intervention On A Vancouver Balcony
For over two decades during my 20s and 30s, I advanced in my career — ascending the corporate ladder, embracing entrepreneurship, and leading a growing digital agency—all while wearing a mask.
Beneath this veneer, I grappled with a persistent, destructive inner voice and harboured deep-seated unforgiveness from my teenage years.
All this was in spite of living what could be described as a “picture perfect life”.
From my late teenage years through to when I was 41 years of age, that dark voice in my head, the same subtle dark voice you battle with, at times utterly tormented me.
Many times it would repeat the same things to me, such as:
“You deserve to live without inner peace”
“For what you have done you deserve to live your life condemned”
“You will never be free”
“All married women cheat on their husbands”
“You are going to lose everything”
“You are a fraud in business and you will be found out”
“You don’t serve to live happily”
The Sky High Balcony In Vancouver
In my late 30s, running a very successful, growing digital agency PRWD in Manchester, I was in Vancouver for 5 days with other world leading agency owners for an annual prestigious gathering.
I was staying in a $1.5 million Airbnb apartment around 24 stories high in a luxurious apartment block, with my 2 German compatriots.
On one of the days, the 3 of us were on our balcony admiring the glorious views of the Vancouver mountains and taking photos. What a picture perfect life I was living, with my beautiful wife and 2 children back in England living in our £700,000 Cheshire home.
After a short while my 2 German compatriots went in to get ready for us going out.
It was just me and that dark destructive voice on the balcony - or so I thought.
As I continued looking out, the dark voice whispered to me:
“Just do it Paul, just jump”
I was filled with total and utter fear and dread.
I slowly edged towards the edge of the balcony, consumed by total fear and darkness.
I got to the edge of the balcony and slowly put my hands on the balcony hand rail.
I slowly peered over the edge of the balcony to loo down at the streets of Vancouver below. The cars were tiny due to how high up I was.
The dark destructive voice said to me again:
“Just do it Paul, just jump. There is no other way. You will finally be free.”
I was gripped with total and utter fear and dread.
I Was Not Alone, You Are Not Alone, We Are Never Alone
I thought I was alone on that balcony that day, but I wasn’t.
Without me knowing, without me comprehending, without me having any faith at all, Jesus was with me.
Jesus stopped me from killing myself and leaving behind my wife and 2 daughters.
Jesus knew that not only was He going to silence that dark destructive voice from having its way in my life, Jesus knew that about 8 years later I would be writing these words now and you would be reading them today.
Jesus knew that He too was going to bring you back from any moments when you have felt totally helpless, total hopeless, total overwhelmed with life.
Jesus knew that He has plans for your life, plans for good and not disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
How To Silence That Subtle, Dark Voice In Your Head
Would you like to silence that voice?
Would like to no longer be tormented by that voice?
Would you like to live with true inter peace?
Would like to no longer struggle with your mental health?
Would you like to live in joy and peace?
Surrender your life to Jesus. Give Him everything.
Receive Jesus as your personal Saviour and confess with your tongue that Jesus is the Lord of your life.
Submit yourself to God, resist the devil and he will flee from you.
